“The day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
I am afraid.
I have never been this vulnerable…
Maybe I should go back to where it’s safe……
There’s a part of me that is questioning expanding my business and putting it (therefore myself) online. So many self-doubts enter my mind about if I can really pull it off and if I’ll be successful. See sometimes I like to hide. Just blend in to the background unnoticed.
Then there is the other part of me that is secretly very excited. I’m at a new stage in my life. Hiding no longer servers me. I can’t go back. There’s nowhere that is truly safe. It’s time to put myself out into this world. I notice how I light up when explaining my training and experiences. Starting this business has already taken me to wonderful places and I have met the most amazing women with more to come.
I want more. I want an exciting life. I want to be bold and brave. The thought of my life as an adventure and living on my own terms fuels the flame.
There is also the realization that I have already failed. Failed tests, classes, at love, work, being a morning person, eating healthy and sometimes walking correctly--just to name a few.
I have already fallen down, just to get back up. More than once. I felt the agony of failing. I have also witnessed the beauty that can come after failure. As they say every day is a chance for a new beginning. So what's the worst that can happen.